Everyone is writing a tribute, Everyone has something to say.
And alot of people dont get it, one gossip website/blog even said with sarcasm.that “its become cool to be a zara friend”
Yea, they cant get it, its simply because you carried almost everyone along.
You desperately needed to be helped so yea you carried us all along, everyone, anyone.
I count myself to have been lucky enough to have known you and been there in the little way I could.
I have tried so hard not to write this.
At the tribute yesterday Kraft asked if I will speak
I said I had too much to say.
There were memories.
so yea I have decided to write.
I met you through my sis, she says both of you would tell each other you were the most beautiful and refuse to accept that you were finer than the other. Lol
I was in JSS1 I think you left Badore a few weeks after I got into Badore. Somehow yourself and my sis would keep in touch.
FastForward 2000-and-something sis told me you had started a music career you wanted to come back to Naija, we discussed labels and all. But I guess you spoke with other people and you got it sorted. I didnt hear from you again until you came, we’ll jam randomly and say hi’s chit chat thats all it was.
Fast Forward MS started.
I was ignorant I heard bout your illness but didnt know what to do until you sent my sis a voice note, she played me the voicenote and I was scared!!! You told her bout MS and what you were going through. It dawned on us how bad it was.
I asked for your pin , we will talk regularly, we discussed the GTB acc, your Fidelity acc, we agreed on the GTB, but I couldnt open the account in your absence, so you said you’ll be home soon.
Then one day one twitter you asked for my number,you were coming to town and we agreed to meet up. I came to see you at Liz’s
As we drove by GTB HQ yesterday the memories were fresh.
How we had to beg the security guys to carry you up the stairs cos you couldnt climb the stairs.
How you eventually climbed holding the railings and smiling.
As I drive past Admiralty way I remember the passport photographs you took, how we had to get you up and down the stairs. I still have a copy of the passport photo, i remember giving you my tiny earrings to take the passport photo.
Boli and Fish?
Lol I remember offering to buy you boli and fish.
Your excitement and innocense as we bought the boli and fish.
Yea that memory i hold.
Kraft says you still asked for Boli and fish recently.
Ice Cream Factory.
The bowel movement incident
How you were crying and saying you wished I didnt have to see you in that state.
and I was upset that you saw it as a big deal. It was nothing.
The shakey voicenotes cos you couldnt type or you were to tired to type.
You’ll send a voicenote I’ll type my reply.
Stem Cell/MS Research.
Mailing the Stem cell clinic, and mailing you the reply.
Your reply was “sounds good mama but I need to get back to yankee right”
Then we spoke about starting a campaign.
We had a budget from the Stem Cell Hospital. Flyer created. We tried to share it facebook, instagram,bbm but that was all.
I was helpless, I didnt know what else to do. I could have tried more. For that I take some blame.
Fast Forward 2014.
You were coming to Lagos and you called my sis Tifa, you desperately needed a place to stay, you called Liz too, I am sure you had called a couple of others too.
But its just normal that alot of people suggested that staying with Family would be better.
I didnt even know when you came in, then you buzzed me two weeks ago, you werent feeling any better, I was helpless I had been a bit ill too, I didnt know what to say. I asked you plenty questions, who could I call or ask? Nobody.
The week you died, you buzzed me on bbm, you said hi and my reply was “I’m sorry” you asked why I was sorry, it was simply cause I felt guilty like I should be doing more.
As cliche as it sounds your status gingered me and I was going to try harder that week.
Maybe cause you had fought for so long, I kinda thought you’ll be able to fight for so long.
I guess MS was upset that you were strong through it all.
In all I am thankful for you, as a muslim all I know that I should do is PRAY for you, nothing else. Ask God to forgive you, and pray that heavens gates are opened for you.
And no I am not moody/upset/sad those of us left behind are left inspired and with a message. No amount of sadness/ regret can bring you back
Inna Lilahi Wa Inna Ilahi Rajiun